UOYSZIMI
It’s 10pm and im lying in bed. The window is open and the wind blows in my room. Outside is raining, the lighting and thunder strikes. Thoughts fill my head as I right this entry. Sigh*
Its been nearly 2 months and I don’t know why im still thinking of you? … sometimes I feel like I can move on with my life, to start with someone new and get over you. But then there are times like this when I feel all alone and all I want is to be with you. The thought of you makes me tear…
I miss the times that we shared together. The memories we made and the moments we had. The pain inside of me is killing me slowly. I cant believe that you have such a big impact on me. >_<
Sigh* I keep on thinking about what I wish we could and should be now. Right now you cold be here wit me… keeping me warm as I fall asleep in your arms. But im dreaming. I dream too much.
It hurts inside and I cant control it. The pain is too much for me to bare. I need some love to rain on me and my broken heart. Right now im listening to music… hrm, love songs… sigh* I should listen to these types of music at this time!! Hehe not a good idea at all… just hurts more.
Bleh*
I miss you soo much some times. I ask myself whyyy?? Whyy am I still stuck on you… after all you put me through…. I know that most people are annoyed and tired of listening to me talk abt my problems. Espeshially abt…you! Haha >_< I try to keep it to myself more often now… sigh but the more I keep it in the more I am confused, and the more I am confused..bleh* the more my heart aches and the more I think abt you.
I tell myself that maybe there is a chance that u can hook back up with you. And sometimes it seems as if there is. But then at other times, it’s the worse feeling ever and I just want to cry! …
Theres something inside of me that wont give up, wont let me let go…
Argh* its killing meeeeee…>___< if onli I could find someone new to get rid of you. ……………
On a lighter note, its my birthday in 10 days^^ yay I guess..but then agen it leads to a neg note.! I wish that I was still with you to share this event with!! See!! Everything that I think about always falls back to you! Even something that is not related…always falls back to yu. Arghhhh* I wana cryy! >_<
I know that I am still young! Rofl..and there is many other people out there and many different experiences that I havent encountered yet.. bleh* all that shiet..sigh I knowww..but then ic ant move on if I cant get over you right??… bleh this is starting to sound like a letter to….him* haha >__< bleh* soweeee…to anyone who is reading..bare with me can? =)
This blogger.. hrm the only one that will actually listen to me… sigh the only way to let things out..
*thank you* heheh..omgosh im talkn to the blogger! Hahah sigh I tink im going siao liao!! >_< bleh
sighhhh… hrm october is nearly ending …… soo many birthday presents I have bought already and now I am seriously broke! Hahah >_< im planning to hav a bbq for my bday! Hrm probably a joint party with my friend. She is going to dinner with her bf at night =) sooo cute* heheh sigh* I miss having someone to call my own.. I miss having someone to hug and kiss whenver I feel like it…
I miss …you…
Yerr..sigh.. if I have my bday Bbq it will probably be in kings park…hrm it kinda hard to control tho coz it is open space and with soo many people! Eek! Hahah >_< bleh* but hopefully all that I hav planned in my head right now turns out perfectly ^^ or at least closeee!! Heheheh sigh*
Anyway I am going to end this here for tonight! Time to watch some korean series =) they are soo sweet i tell u! hahah >_< there are a few love triangles and aww..i feel sowee for them!! >_< it is so cute and sad..and…awww bleh and guess what??? It makes me think of him agen!!!!!!! ARGHHH hahahahhaa..whuy does everything lead to him?? If only he knew how I felt ..and if only he ..missed me.. sigh which is hrmm siff?tough?!! blEHhh *CRIES* lol not reali..but hrmm..my heart…has sunk like the Titanic into a deep, deep, cold, dark ocean… lost in unknown waters with nothing to lead me … lost in the dark with nowun to hold on to.. nowun to turn to.. all alone and lost…
A broken heart waiting to be mended …. Waiting for you to come back to me…..sigh I miss you!
1 Comments:
serene arh, jus dropped by~ hope evrything will be alrite soon.. must be veri hard for u to forget.. neway! must stay strong k k.. cannot breakdown arhh... n n if wanna cry better cry it all out =) hehe.. takecare.. cant wait for your birthday party =D must relax from sch work heheee.. =P seeyas
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